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Tuesday entry, Direction

Emotions: (last few days) Satisfied, connected, included, empowered (today) confused about direction, unhappy, unfocused, irritated at work, like I could do better, a need to contribute

Today started badly, with a terrible sleep, and strange thoughts at 4am about dying. Not sure what these mean, but have something to do with how I felt today at work. Strongest emotion this week so far is to make a difference in protecting this planet, helping to undo and prevent damage from humans in years to come. Read an article saying London could be made redundant by sea rise in last quarter of the century. Wow. Big decision coming up here, should I study teaching/sports science or Environmental science, in next year or two? There is also environmental engineering where I could make a real difference in NZ and overseas, another 4 years though?

Myself or wider contribution?

  • Choice is either making a difference in sport/personal training, and learning to coach others, to help achieve goals
  • Environmental science/engineering
  • Career direction will keep changing, (due to my personality?), need to find what I want this point in time. 
  • Comes back to working on Decisiveness, Decision followed by action. Doing this well last week, getting out in community for sport opportunity. 
Defining factor: I still don't know what i want. Need some time off to reconsider my options and recover, spirit and mind.

 New job opportunity

A new job with athletics auckland sailed under my radar this week, during an idle perusal of the Sport NZ website careers (make this a habit?). Having a more in depth think about the role... might not be ready for this level of responsibility yet. Will apply all the same as may be a great way to get involved for future opportunity.

 BC, Canada, Fernie

Finding myself again at random, on JJ's facebook and realised how great travelling the world would be, living free and finding work at ski resorts and outdoor instruction 

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