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Sunday post, Failure

Emotions (today): Satisfied, happy being myself around friends, and making great new ones. Little disappointed about not going out for dumplings tbh, could have managed with better time management, not being nervous. 
(past 2 days): Conflicted, Frustrated (at job progress). Unconnected (with friends and ultimate). Overtired, fatigued, mentally drained after work all day, low energy for social life.

I have known for a fain while now that failure is completely okay, and I need to embrace it in order to learn more about myself and achieve goals. But that didn't stop me being scared of failure still, even though doing something, and making an active decision in the risk it may not go my way, and there is a decent chance of failure, I will feel much better having attempted the risk than not trying. 

Example: going to social events, captaining a team, running a goal session, running group class

Life is better lived not thinking and acting based on feelings and impulse. Usually I know what I what is the best decision for me, often not the easiest, but what I'll get more out of, what I'll feel more satisfied doing. Life's better feeling satisfied, like I'm doing my best. "Dont think" - Tim Grover.

Plan for next week:
To have more energy for social life after work (5pm) and on weekend nights, I need to make sure that:
1. Getting enough sleep. 10 min stretching and meditating routine EVERY night before bed. Start at       8:40, aim to be asleep by 9. 
2. Manage self better at work, Nutrition is good, more organisation around day, e.g. session bookings,     VAP, cleaning, meetings etc. 
3. I am super exited about my social life, finding great new friends to make, hanging with good               existing ones, and just being myself around others. Ultimate is the best! When I have no plans for       the night make some.

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