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Friday entry

Friday started at 5am for a team session in the studio. Good workout, bad for my program. Finding running group on thursday/friday easier, more in control, but still need to work on showing stronger leadership and being more confident.

Friday evening feeling good, been a long day and going to have a quiet one, nothing much on the social calendar anyway (Kira??) Maybe get out tomorrow night. Sitting on back porch in dusk is so peaceful after a long and fulfilling day, breathing in fresh air, enjoying the sounds of nature: crickets, neighbours talking, wind in trees, without cars or busyness of town hubs where I work.

"It is what it is"

Wise words from brad, more I think about it, the more important they are. Strangely different from what society teaches us, we are not our thoughts, possessions, or even past experiences. Instead we are what we choose to be in the present moment. Choice being the key word. Sure, possessions can alter our egos, social media can influence our subconcious thoughts and past experiences can shape personality and values. Accepting a situation without attaching any judgement to it, positive or negative, does not stop us recognising it as unpleasant and driving us to take action, or enjoyable and preventing us having fun, but rather experience life more fully and presently. Recognising and learning from failure is a key part in this. Just recognising our failures and seeing it as such causes undue suffering.

Example: Fuck, I got 2 parking tickets in two days, this is the worst. Fuck, I punched a hole in the wall. Fuck, I put in heaps of effort at work, and still don't get paid enough. This situation is shit, my life could be so much better but I'm stuck in this puddle. Why not: I'm not getting paid, but I'm fresh outta uni, and learning great training and people skills, learning what I want to do with my life. I'm going to get into a position where I can leverage more, earn more.

"Remembering experiences are fleeting can weirdly help us experience them more presently and fully" - Unified soul theory.

Week Summary:
  • It is what it is, let it be, what can I do now? Let go of pain in past. 
  • Chill in living room more, guitar, movies, PS3. 
  • Both of my jobs are teaching me great new skills, I feel more confident and skilled than ever before. Never known to be a fast learner, but getting told I am one.   

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