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Feeling overwhelmed

Emotions: angry, annoyed, tired

This week I feel angry at my work, vision because of the big commitment this has, and the impact it is having on the rest of my life, ultimate, social life and my icebreaker job. My initial though response to this stress was to quit for a more manageable lifestyle work work, sport and social elements. After opening up with some of my colleagues and boss, I let them know my life has been hard over the past year, and the reason behind my dip in motivation, body language, negative attitude over last week. We talked about language and the thought process behind this being a key influence in how we approach challenges in work and establishing a good life balance.

After a great weekend at Ocean beach I can to appreciate my friends in the ultimate community and those close ones from high school. These were brought together for a great weekend of ultimate and fun at my favourite small corner of the world, up in Whangarei heads. I guess coming down off this high has a big role to play in my thoughts and language towards work at vision, focusing on how impossible it is to continue living this lifestyle. In reality, although I may not like it, it is totally achievable to find a balance of competitive sport, PT and part time work at Icebreaker, but I need to focus on the how, like when I can have my next nap to recharge. To continue to keep a mix of weekend-long competitive and social ultimate tournaments in my life, I may need to rethink a different strategy. Connecting with friends and making new ones in the ultimate community is the biggest joy in my life, and playing well within a team in competitive tournaments brings me the most satisfaction.

Career choice

For my ultimate career, the question always was how I could incorporate a field I am passionate about with good compatibility with my sporting/ultimate lifestyle, and allow enough time for weekend tournaments abroad. Life's always better when you have something to look forward to, but you also need to have time to look forward to it. 13 hour days are stupid and if they continue will have no choice but to leave. I also need to remember I am young, fresh out of uni with an internationally recognised degree and I do have a lot of options.

Physio?
  • Over the weekend I had the thought of re-applying for physio again, with the combination of my experience in sport industry from BSR (practicum, cyclists, co-op, performance analysis, NZRL), would set me up well for work.
  • Long hours required for this job, and another 4 years in university for the chance to begin a career in physio. What could I accomplish in this time at vision?
  • 1 year at vision then applying next year?
Controlling thought process

  • Using the situation to my advantage, most people don't get the chance to feel overwhelmed

My Decision

Making the conscious decision to stay at vision for the remainder of the Mentor program was a hard one, but one I need to stick to to learn neccisary skills for the rest of my life, such as controlling negative thoughts and language, and being able to teach others to.

My family and friends also have a big influence on what my path my career should take next... Currently I am going for experience and growth over money, and putting up with poor pay to achieve this. Talking to my flatmate Adam also helped me feel more secure, with the suggestion that earning 20 an hour straight out of university aint too bad, along with the perks of free equipment access. Will get a solid client routine in time, just need to be patient and focus on each week as it comes.

Goal for Next 4 weeks (1st April):

  1. Master my internal language. Thinking around challenges. 
  2. Stick out remainder of mentor program. 4-5 weeks to go, will re-evaluate at the end. 
  3. Talk to Skate, Simon and Kirsten about my current situation, and potential career opportunities. 
  4. Sleep lots, whenever I can. 



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