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Facing the Shadow

Mediation this week is our unconscious shadow guiding our action and internal dialogue.

Becoming conscious is to change our energy output, via choice, in our actions toward ourself and others. Most of the time we are guided by fear and judgement. True humility, is to no longer be subject to humiliation. Take a risk to be considered a fool. Tools to achieve real humility? Start with self-esteem. Self-recognition, to create a strong self-identity. Who am I? What is significant to me/has shaped me?

Once I'm aware, I know what moves me and has shaped me, I can change it. Replacing the negative guilt, blame and frustration characters, with true love, self respect and esteem, the positive becomes our contribution to the world rather than our search for it outside of us. Disentangle from old negative habits and form new attachment to positive action. The reward? I am able to respond to any situation with balance and grace. The world see's us as we see ourselves.'

Inner Dialogue
For example, changing from: "too hard", "should, have to do it", got to suffer" with corollary, "want to", love to". I like challenge, difficult assignments. I have a chance to prove myself.

Consequence of negative?
Buy into condemnation from others, do to ourselves, allow negative past to guide a negative future.
Create a new meaning to the past, it lights up future with new enthusiasm and confidence, from a foundation of forgiveness, love, and respect in the relationships which helped get us here. We are given the choice, so why not choose who we want to be?

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