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The clearing of the mist

Perceptions

Time is a funny thing. It warps and changes your view at a given point and then being exposed to other things change it to something completely different. Or some shit. In other news I am stoked to have found and realized a new direction for my life, and a schedule which should keep me busy for July through till December, with an income from part time work.

 A risk worth taking?

Going back to uni to do postgrad was always going to be a risk. What I know is that I have gotten a lot of life experience from the BSR programme over the last few years and I am grateful for that. From surfing and marae stays to formal conferences to showcase a year-long project before peers and industry professionals, it has sure been a great ride with its highs and lows. If one thing is for certain it should put to end any doubts about taking this particular direction for my career. Sure, I could have done engineering, but that would of sucked. I still can. But not in this chapter of my life.

Building things. What is the point to life if we don't experience growth, make positive changes in our environment and gain confidence in fields of interest and passion? For me, right now, this is human performance, sport for growing confidence and leadership with youth, mental approaches which work in both sporting and everyday contexts (taking things as they come, calm, internal focus, reducing the significance, peter snell). There is a lot that fascinates me so it is a wide and varied field. But specifically, if I had to pick one it would be developing kids, imparting valuable life skills to help them be better and care for themselves and this world.

Endnote

Memories are worth more than money. Make them! I live in a great place, with great friends. Truly a perfect location really, for cheap rent, and flatmates who's company I can enjoy and appreciate deeply. There is little time to spare for negatives in this fleeting, unique, sometimes baffling, often weird, and always wonderful live we live on planet earth. Who wants to moan about lousy traffic or IRD problems? This life is truly and deeply satisfying, I would do well to remember that more and not to cast my net of consciousness to far afield. The magic is always within sight and reach with a little self-awareness and creativity, and certainly doesn't come to life when we measure to and view life to the standards of others,

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