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Quitting, the best way forward?

Emotions: Tired, confused, disengaged, connected (ultimate people)

Had a good catchup with an old friend and recent grad today (cee) along with a few other ulti people. At work had a good productive day, getting in a new client for an hour, doing some early-morn exploring around Ponsonby.

PT work

Have come to the realisation my hours are taking too long to grow, needing another 2 months almost to reach 25, and a decent wage. Gut feeling: fuck this place, on to the next one. Heart feeling: developed good relationships with the other trainers, especially Tom.

Does this work still align with my long term goal?
At the start it did, with AD in mind, learning good goal setting practices, technical training skills and communication. Now I may be coming to a point where my progression will continue at a slower rate.
Good time to take a risk, and a new challenge! At current am not getting enough challenge or fulfilment from PT. Evening shifts are not something I want to keep doing 2 nights p/week. Getting more optimal challenge, on skill/anxiety curve from Hapkido in honesty.

What next?

Tomorrow morning, with Deni and Dean around organise a chat. Can also wait out last week, with icebreaker shifts mon/tues and see how it flows. Contact YMCA and AD remuera (physically visit friday?) for volunteer/work opportunity.

Shakespeare

This last week shakespeare has inspired me more than anything in a long while, through pop up globe. 12th night was a kind of light hearted humour and atmosphere that others and I need more of in my life. Good crowd, maybe a sign I need to pursue creative endeavors more this year. Stage? Music? not much happening there. Great afternoon out on Sunday, best I've had in a while.
Last week with Globe stirred some emotions much stronger than any I've felt from work or study.



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