Life in the LongWhiteCloud

Facing the Shadow Mediation this week is our unconscious shadow guiding our action and internal dialogue. Becoming conscious is to change our energy output, via choice, in our actions toward ourself and others. Most of the time we are guided by fear and judgement. True humility, is to no longer be subject to humiliation. Take a risk to be considered a fool. Tools to achieve real humility? Start with self-esteem. Self-recognition, to create a strong self-identity. Who am I? What is significant to me/has shaped me? Once I'm aware, I know what moves me and has shaped me, I can change it. Replacing the negative guilt, blame and frustration characters, with true love, self respect and esteem, the positive becomes our contribution to the world rather than our search for it outside of us. Disentangle from old negative habits and form new attachment to positive action. The reward? I am able to respond to any situation with balance and grace. The world see's us as we see ourselves...

Relationships in my life have changed dramatically over past month from using a gratitude meditation. Using a broad vision, seeing each relationship and person in a continuum rather than defined by single events.  This helps to override present state duality, good or bad perceptions, slights, faultfinding, envy and so forth. Practice exercise : To view each flatmate with this viewpoint, broad minded. Writer, Destiny, Habit. Every day, ten minutes. I dedicate time to this blog, building skills needed to write books, critically reflect on Bhakti, university, therapy to organise thoughts coherently, creating rich fruits of experience and realisation to help guide myself and others. Rising early is bringing a calmness and fresh start and an exiting habit to maintain. Knowledge is Power Knowledge of our actual position and that of others, the playing field we are on, the rules of the game, is the platform of knowledge. From this we can evoke compassion to help others, armed with k...

A familiar feeling of trepidation swept over me.  I stepped over the threshold into the cold clinical setting of a Yr two practical examination room.  "have i missed my exam slot?" , "did they forget to call me in?" panicking, I fought to retain composure as my clinical supervisor approached me. "Alex, there you are! please come through, the exam is about to start" . As stood and waited to see which examiner and clinical scenario I would get, p ast memories flashed through my mind of my first exam sit.  "What If I fail again?" The same words echoed in my mind hauntingly, inviting the inevitable.  I was directed towards the furthest booth, with my examiner Richard, head of the musculoskeletal department, who curtly nodded as I nervously greeted him. An exam moderator sat a short distance furiously scribbling on a clipboard. I read the brief and the exam timer rang to signal the start.  He began "You have a 45 yr old builder with rig...