Life in the LongWhiteCloud

Men generally have two propensities, intelligence with action and emotion with stagnation. Research into EFT (emotional freedom techniques) gives insight that confrontation with an observer can knock one out of an emotional barrier or problem avoidance pattern. Psychology would call it a state-change, can be generated by a change of circumstance or environment and is facilitated by action. EFT is based on action, self-ownership to overcome mental blocks. This energy is sourced from within, not externally. The therapist just acts as a facilitator to bring it out. Relationships work like this also, negative experience creating negative impression, avoidance and resentment. How to combat this? Create positive new experiences and break out of the rhythm the mind it set to. State change and action. The mind is a machine and needs training the same way the body does to work properly. In summary EFT is a discipline to help control the mind from the many influences, or effectors which lead i...

Anxiety. Moving in with new people in a community setting, for the goal of developing more in Krishna Consciousness. Leaving a comfortable flat, with convienient location I'm forced to rethink my priorities. My fear holds me back from making this brave decision. Will I regret it? Will i get ripped off? Is it a foolhardy move, from a logic standpoint? Then I must ask, what will I gain, through priceless memories with the guys of the ashram, and what is the worst that could happen? Okay I could get evicted, have to rearrange my situation. So I'm still alive right? Priorities. Living with devotees, how important is it? Priority for comfort and security or living with devotees? Up to priority. Material priorities are not as big for me now, I have changed. I need the guidance and help from. Fear, landlord, something goes wrong? Will I lose caravan? Unlikely. But if it happens it happens, this is my move and I'll be brave and take a leap. Doubts again. I will be left in a ba...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us. We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you  not  to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, As children do. We were born to make manifest The glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; It's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others - Marianne Williamson

The last few months have exposed me to a very different culture, changing my habit and thought much. Right now I have a crossroad: embrace this philosophy and work hard every day to fit it in my life, or coast and continue as I was, with the loft. Since life is short the only real option is 1. As I go I will learn more of my dharma, and things will become more clear. Muddy water over last year has cast clouds over work and career choice, doubt crept in mind. Acting to please others and hide from truth in heart. I yearn to cast away old attachments and ways of fitting in without looking at true nature and purpose. I struggle with comparing myself to role models, being critical of my current effort and level. But I must see that these role models have their own dharma and strength, I can take inspiration. Just as from a good musician, inspiration can happen, and push my skill higher. Bhakti is a lifestyle to follow, with ideals, outside focus is allowed. Guilty feeling is pointles...