Life in the LongWhiteCloud

What am I meant to do? This question has irked me for 22 years, I feel I've never truly found the answer. Last week I realised resourcefulness is one of my key attributes, in finding new ways to prevent waste, saving money on food, inventing new workout types etc. I am not a strongly logical or rational thinker, my decisions are more controlled by impulsive or emotional reason. I am highly empathetic to other people and living creatures, nature. I enjoy helping others but would rather make a difference to nature and the wider world. I am highly concientious, feeling guilty if I give less than my best, this can lead me to push myself when I need recovery at times. The past week has been a bit of a blur, with plenty of work, ultimate and spending time with my favourite people, through brass monkey, AUUC, icebreaker, and the showcase games. Lost my sense of rythym and in need of a better, more consistent sleep routine, currently feel lethargic in morning and late arvo. I have a...

Emotions: Tired, elated, happy, connected The weekend just been had so many great moments I couldn't count them all on two hands. 3rd and so far best Brass monkey yet, although I am very average at indoor. Realised I have a lot to work on in my current game, in this week to come if I am to play the barbarians at the weeks end. Indoors Indoor Saturday made me feel unsatisfied. Bad play, partly teammates expectations, resulting in a simmering annoyance after the final. Will provide the drive I need to get to the top, getting into good throwing and training habits and switching on early before games. Throwing Hucks: Forehand was either too much IO for wind conditions or not within the field of play. Option taking was better than execution, however throwing too early in cut, making the throw require more hang time, e.g. dump truck play. Unders and break side: Throwing too close to bidding defenders, be patient, can dump off. Cutting: Good lane cuts, getting out close to t...

Emotions: Tired, confused, disengaged, connected (ultimate people) Had a good catchup with an old friend and recent grad today (cee) along with a few other ulti people. At work had a good productive day, getting in a new client for an hour, doing some early-morn exploring around Ponsonby. PT work Have come to the realisation my hours are taking too long to grow, needing another 2 months almost to reach 25, and a decent wage. Gut feeling: fuck this place, on to the next one. Heart feeling: developed good relationships with the other trainers, especially Tom. Does this work still align with my long term goal? At the start it did, with AD in mind, learning good goal setting practices, technical training skills and communication. Now I may be coming to a point where my progression will continue at a slower rate. Good time to take a risk, and a new challenge! At current am not getting enough challenge or fulfilment from PT. Evening shifts are not something I want to keep doing 2 n...

Emotions: Connected (ultimate, work, art/creative scene), motivated, tired,  Long week. Great conversation today about how coming up against barriers in training, career, life and how you respond to these determines how successful you will be in that pursuit, and in other areas of life. Adapting to challenges and continual self-reflection and application so important in an ever-changing world. Example: Fitting to suit culture better in sport team, what do i need to do? Better planning in weight training, around injury to knee. Strength days, conditioning, rest. Keep track of periodisation for 2 months.  "To achieve something you've never had, do something you've never done" Felt great to go to a play this week, atmosphere was incredible and never seen shakespear performed better with more wit. Great comedy, great thing to do with good friend of mine. "Be not afraid of greatness, some are born great, others become great, and some have greatness thrust u...

Monday Emotions: Fully energised and engaged, satisfied (Connection with ultimate friends), refreshed Physical: Injury to knee going backwards, pain threshold after playing back up to 3-4/10, from 0-1/10. Sleep: Getting back into a good sleep routine over the weekend, and getting multiple nights in a row, Friday 8, Saturday 9.5, and Sunday 8.5 was the formula for an good recovery and bounce, improvement and growth, mentally responding to challenges from last week well. This response is something I feel I have not done as well over the week before. If I'm pushing myself in condition grey from Monday to Saturday, occaisionaly slipping into black in short periods, I need to get plenty of sleep in, at right timing.  Nutrition: Getting in more frequent lower GI meals this week has helped heaps, especially the oats, avoiding cravings and feeling hungry after workouts etc. More sources of protein, beans, eggs, chicken etc.  Physio? Pros and cons Physio seems...